Tomorrow I leave for NOLA. One of my best friends (Leeeeeen!) is getting married this weekend and I'm so happy for her. She's the best! Her husband to be is pretty cool too. YA'LL GOT FROSTIES?? Things have been pretty great lately. I have a beautiful and amazing wife, an adorable son who is the happiest and smiliest baby I've ever seen, a successful and thriving business, and a great house to call home. Looking back at my livejournals is weird, but such a good way to reflect. It's crazy to think of where I am today vs. then, but also how some of the best parts of my life (relationship and friendships) have remained throughout all this time. Alright, I gotta go pack. Can't wait to see you all! Laterzzzzzzzz
Thu, Feb. 10th, 2005, 11:31 pm
Thanks guys, you all roXors.
Fri, Feb. 4th, 2005, 01:24 pm
Alright, I can't keep doing this. I can't keep pretending like everything's going to magically make itself better.
I have dreams. Dreams of someday becoming a professional baseball player. Dreams of living a life far beyond the one I've experienced thus far. I have to realize that those dreams aren't going to happen unless I do something about it. I have to stop gambling. I know this. I can't expect to create a life for myself with something so unstable. I have to get a job. The only way working at Bill's would suffice is if I were to work there full time, which seems highly unlikely. I need to find a 9 to 5, 5 days a week job. You know, a typical everyday man's job... at least temporarily. I have to go to school. Whether it be CCM or any other place I end up, it still has to be done. I know school isn't for me, but if I'm expecting the kind of life I want, I have to go to school and make it happen.
Meg, sweetheart, I love you... I truly do. You are the best thing to happen to me since I've been alive. But I can't keep doing this. I can't keep coming to the city to see you on a whim during the middle of the week. It just can't work like that anymore. It's hurting me. Not only hurting me, but it's impeding me. I'll never be able to do the things I need to get done if I'm bouncing back and forth between home and New York. As much as I love seeing you, and as much as I need you, I'm realizing that there are other important things that I need to attend to in my life... if we want our dreams to come true, if we want the life we really desire, then you'll realize what I'm realizing as well. I'm going to need your help on this.. we can't keep letting me live like this.
I miss my friends... as much as I know they dont miss me because of how distant I've been, and how much of a jerk I've been, I still miss them.
Well, I guess that's it..
Love you sweetheart.. I know if we work together we can do whatever we want..
Tue, Nov. 30th, 2004, 10:32 pm
i want to sleep this week away.
thanksgiving was good.. cheesegiving/white castle was awesome. miss you kids more then you think.
moe's bday party was really cool.
seriously considering sleeping through this entire week.
miss you meaghan.. too much..
Wed, Nov. 10th, 2004, 02:04 pm
This weekend.. let's see.. went to Chelsea Dietz's sweet 16, it was alright.. spent the weekend with the lovely Meaghan Eve.. went to Yellowcard on Saturday night with Meg Moe and Ant.. Starting Line sucked as I expected, but Yellowcard was incredible, so it was definately worth it. Saw The Grudge on monday with Meg and Mich.. it kinda sucked but it was still fun.. Went back into the city with Meg on Monday night, lost my wallet on the cab ride home.. really fucking sucks.. didnt have much money in it which was good, but now I have to replace everything which is gonna be a major biotch. Already cancelled my debit card and got another one, that was really easy actually. The coolest people are coming home this weekend! I can't wait! Physical therapy tonight and tomorrow night at 5. My shoulder's slowly getting better. Went food shopping today also.. yum.
I love you Meg.. can't wait for Thanksgiving, Christmas, and this summer. Miss you squeaker ;)
Thu, Nov. 4th, 2004, 01:57 am
I hate that I get jealous. I hate that I am in fact insecure. I hate that I stick my nose in places where it shouldn't be. The only reason I get insecure and jealous though is because you are the best thing that's ever happened to me. I couldn't even fathom losing you. I really do hate myself for being this way...
Tue, Oct. 26th, 2004, 07:59 pm
Well, this weekend was cool. Went into the city on Friday.. went to the top of the Empire State Building and saw Blue Man Group on Saturday night. Blue Man Group was really cool and I would definately go see their show again. Sunday and Monday I just hung around with Meg and her roommates and slept alot. Oh and we got our Halloween costumes. Meg is being Tinkerbell and I'm being Hook. Her costume is really cute, but the skirt part is insanely short, so I don't really like it. But whatever. Had physical therapy today, it was good. Now I'm going to play some volleyball and take out some frustrations that I have right now. Later.
Sat, Oct. 16th, 2004, 01:29 am
I'm sitting here at 1:30 in the morning, completely exhausted.
I just drove for 16 hours.
I'm tired and cranky.
And all I want to do is be able to see your face, hear your voice, hold you in my arms and kiss you.
Honestly, when I have those four things, I am complete. I want nothing more than you.
You've given me everything. You've given me something to look forward to. You've given me someone to love, and someone to share my life with. But most of all, you've given me your unconditional love and support. And I can't thank you enough for that.
As I sit here and write this, I can't help but think of the smile that will be on your face when you read it. That beautiful smile that matches those pretty brown eyes.
I can say in all honestly, you are the most beautiful girl I have ever laid eyes on. No matter what you think.
I don't know what I'd do without you Meaghan. You have become a part of me, and that will never change.
You compliment me so well, and you're definately my better half.
I want you to know how truly talented I think you are. You have such a special gift and I really can't wait until you're able to share it with the world. Don't ever stop painting and/or drawing.
I can't wait to see you snowboard.
I can't wait to spend Christmas with you.
I can't wait to see you tomorrow.
I can't wait for every second more I get to spend with you.
I love how you love baseball. I love how your favorite color is orange.
I love how much you rub off on me.
I love how you love dogs. I love how you're Italian [the food ;)]
I love your sense of style. I love the way you laugh.
I love every little thing about you.
I even love how we argue.
I love how much you love me.
But most of all,
I love you.
I miss you,
and the things you do.
The time we had,
good and bad.
The day we met,
I can't forget.
Signed sincerely, Me
Fri, Oct. 1st, 2004, 08:47 pm
So, this past week I spent in New York. Wonderful, wonderful New York. Which by the way I love more and more every time I visit Meg. It's funny.. I never would've gotten to know the city if it weren't for Meg. Like I had barely ever even been in NYC prior to her going to school at SVA.
Needless to say, it was an awesome time. I looooooooove youuuuuuuuuu Meaghan Eve. You are the greatest thing in my life, hands down.
Can't wait to go down to VTech.. gonna kick ass.